貴方が好きな私
阿部真央
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You dislike the me that has taken on only your style so
I put a little space between us, like leaning forward so as to not tumble down the hill
Honestly, I want to try plunging into your heart and sobbing but
The version of me that you like isn’t that sort of cute girl

As I pretend to be free I get swallowed by loneliness in the night
and hide myself and shed tears, but even so I want to be loved by you

The me that loves you is killing me
I was charmed into this endless maze by your hand
Each time you blink the person I am now gets further burned into your mind
Love me who skillfully played the version of me that loves you today too

If I obsessed over you such that I couldn’t concentrate on anything else and without any of the details of your words being forgotten
If you knew the maddening jealousy on the other side of my behaviors you don’t pay attention to is the real me, I wonder, would you throw me away?

I make you hesitant to get close, not knowing how to fawn over you
I wonder where it is I want to go, clinging onto you?

As I am by your side I continue to die
Just this pent up loneliness mustn’t have been born
Don’t strike me with those cruel words each time you breathe
I’ll properly play the version of me that loves you, so love me

I know the skills to slip out and escape from here, but I’m here unable to step forward
You call out from the other side of the darkness
I tremble in your voice, but even so I want to be loved by you

The me that loves you is killing me
I was charmed into this endless maze by your hand
Each time you blink the person I am now gets further burned into your mind
Love me who skillfully played the version of me that loves you today too
I’ll do it right to the end, so love me