嫌われてないかな
阿部真央
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Only this feeling must not be noticed
because it will trouble you and we won’t be able to come back to this point
In the school yard after school I watch you running
and frantically suppressed my overflowing feelings

I can’t forthrightly smile in front of you
How do I appear to you? Are my feelings jutting out?

I wonder if I’m noticed; I wonder if I’m hated
I wonder if you were hurt by the words at that time
If my wish reaches you now,
nestle up close to me and kiss me like in a dream Aa...

I want to meet you in coming and going of each day
I can’t get used to that feeling of wanting to leave my seat on the days I can’t meet you
In the school yard I stand petrified and forever search for traces of you
as if to pray for a miracle


It would be wonderful if you were right there after I rounded this corner
These days are composed of faint hope and continuing to reach out in vain

I can’t even see your face; I can’t even lift up my head
I love you this much; It’s all this painful
I want you to not notice it; I want you to not hate me
The prospect of losing you is simply more frightening than anything else...

If you notice this love I have for you
don’t tell anyone and pretend like you don’t know anything
I want you to not notice it; I want you to not hate me
I’m very selfish, but don’t do away with me

I wonder if I’m noticed; I wonder if I’m hated
I wonder if you were hurt by the words at that time
If my wish reaches you now,
nestle up close to me an kiss me like in a dream
Aa...