Yasashii Kotoba (Kind Words)
Mao Abe
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I’ve saved up all sorts of things and become an adult but
I consume too much of anything and everything that my cold heart is swelling
Making fun of love songs seems to be what the experts do but
I have no idea why you wouldn’t sing about a feeling as lovely as that

I’m tired, ‘cause I love everyone
But I’m going to stop already, I’ve chosen to not overdo it, I’ll become myself

When I’ve rinsed out my heart that’s about to burst with these cruel words and unsightly love
I’ve got to walk on with spirit again with those kind words and your love, I’ve got to continue

If I try giving the cross fastened to my back a gentle stroke
the beautiful memories of that face I was supposed to hold dear overflow
No matter how many times I now apologize to
you who dedicated that song of love and you who angrily thrusted me away...it won’t get to you

I’ll go on changing, to request your forgiveness,
In order to protect that one single thing that can’t be altered

The pain I inflicted and the tears I caused, I must never forget it
I’ll keep on walking until the day I can become someone that is fit for kind words

I thought that once I became an adult it would be easier to live and that I would become stronger
What’s the reality? I just become more afraid as I continue; I hurry as my legs quiver

Those I want to protect, and those that are lovable; as they increase my painful scars do as well
When I’ve recoated my life with the strength from hoping to live on together with someone, I’ll smile and face forward

When I’ve rinsed out my heart that’s about to burst with these cruel words and unsightly love
I’ve got to walk on with spirit again with those kind words and your love, I’ve got to continue
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